Amanda ❤

心旷神怡

2011-10-28T05:34:00.000-07:00

眨眨眼，我们相识的日子已经1年半了，我的‘男朋友’
这段时间里我们总是互相依靠的--我需要你的细心，你需要我的指点
一直以来我们都说要一起毕业，我到哪里，你就在哪里。
很多事情，不需要你特别开口说明，
其实我已经注意得到你的神情，
也许有时你觉得我不了解你，
或者我大剌剌的个性伤害到你，
但是我想我们都知道大家的底线。

我能够很明确的指出是哪一天开始你对我完全冷漠
你刻意地收起你的祝福，回避任何和我单独相处的机会，
从你做的第一样事情开始，我就已经察觉到
只是，我不问，你也不说，
因为我知道，即使问了，你也未必会愿意摊牌。

你的心有一道墙，保护自己的观念很强，
从你隐秘的部落格里看得出，你很坚持自己的想法，
很荣幸的，我得到了你的准许可以进入你的世界
只是现在，我真的百思不解，
我到底做错了什么事情让你如此反感？
也许我的语气有点坚决，可是内心真的很不好受，
不管习惯还是不习惯都好，你确实是我很在意的朋友，
要不，你怎么会是第一个知道这件事的人呢？

我真的希望我们能够好好坐下来谈一谈，
其实也没什么的，交心交心，不就是交换真心吗？
我给你我的，你也不要吝啬，好吗？
等你，我要
听你说。

Bipolar

2011-10-20T09:50:00.000-07:00

Undefined boundaries.
Blurring vision.
Trying to grasp something,
ended up with nothing,
but a handful of air that doesn't belong to me.

There are times when i feel like i'm lost in the grey region.
Struggling, trying to figure out something that is supposed to be out of my mind.
Till then i didn't know i'm getting myself into a dilemma.
Though it will not last long, but maybe it is a good way to balance my emotions.

Being optimistic is no longer my mask,
in fact it has become part of my true self,
that's why i'm being liked by many, not everyone, but majority, at least,
and I'm pretty confident to say that nobody likes anyone who is of a negative mind.

No worries, i'm tough enough to be a superwoman,
aspired to be Claire Bernard in Heroes drama series who owns healing power,
and remains undefeated no matter how hard she falls.
I know i can make it.
Always aim higher.
Even though I'm afraid of experiencing confusion of being true to myself.

[ Character isn't about what happens to you,

but how you respond to it. ]

- SunTzu for Women

学盲人走“路”

2011-05-24T11:51:00.000-07:00

不用手来关耳朵，不用眼皮关眼睛，
我唯一能做的事就是：把心封闭，硬撑。

而我最缺的是：
勇气。

Close your eyes, and ~~go back~~

step forward

哪管别人怎么看我。

他们批评我，

因为他们不懂我。

记

2011-05-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

黑暗中的你向我走来，街边路灯晒出了你半边轮廓
你淡淡地向我问候，语气里少不了关怀
但空气中免不了的那份尴尬，依然回荡。
你说项链渐渐松了，连不锈钢环都生锈了，因为你日夜戴着
我看着手中的项链，热泪满盈，这是陪着你度过每一天，我的东西。
强忍住了泪水，我希望你没看见我眼泛泪光。
我努力地寻找不敏感的话题填补我们之间的空隙
却发现我们的距离，渐渐像真空一样，明明是一段距离，却没有任何东西可以取代。

空气变得如此寒冷，像凝固的优胳，是令人如此欣慰却冻伤味蕾的滋味。
沉浸在自己的思绪中，连自己都对自己的内疚感到如此的不可理喻。
连身边的那个都问我：为什么过了那么久还那么内疚？
我无法确实形容，更无法原谅自己的那份绝情
是我自私地辜负了你的一片真心。
我不爱你了，这是实话吗？如果不是，那为什么不选择继续包容？
于是，我明白感情世界里不只是是非黑白对与错，
想要原谅那些我曾经臭骂的负心人，因为，
我成了他们的一分子。
负。心。人。多么好的形容词。

我向你致一百个敬
因为你对爱情的执着与坚持
我可能再也找不到比你更看重我的人
可是我不可以让你影响我现在的感情
因为我清醒地看见，我不能越过的界线
我会说服自己更坚强地往前迈进
对你我唯一希望的就是你会过得更好
要不我宁愿不要看见或听见任何关于你的事，
变鸵鸟也好，
虽然我不会，或需要很长很长的时间
才能忘记我们曾经那么刻骨铭心的回忆
我会把他们封闭在上了锁的冰箱里。

我会哭，
但你要加油。

張惠妹 - 我最親愛的

Imma rude girl

2011-04-22T11:23:00.000-07:00

I would like to use a million of that finger to shut your mouth up
I understand that as a friend everything you do is reasonable
but you seem to forget that i'm watching over the entire incident
so this is why you can neglect my existence?

I hate myself so much.
Why can't people who aren't suppose to remember me stop thinking and judging whatever shits about me at the moment? If i were given the chance to do something on you, i'll splash a bottle-ful of my tears on your nerdy face. You suck! I wanna slap you a hundred times i could and run as far away as i can, IF nobody could ever remember me.

I can find a lot of ears to listen to me
but they won't be there for a long time
especially when i started crying
they tend to escape and make me stop crying
why can't i let me emotions flow as what i like？
why can't people pamper me like a baby?
why do i look so scary to everyone as though i'm the iron man?
please don't expect that i can go through all these!
OR perhaps what i need is a shoulder to cry on.

Forget about the image and everything.
Fuck you.
and fuck my life.

协议

2011-03-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

对于
像我这样的女生
为了给你空间争取踏实的人生
我们可以不要你的全心全意

如果
你能把同等的精力花在学/事业上
也许将来你大可不必为了少了那点“计划”而懊恼

我想

不如这样

你给我面包，我给你爱情

2011-03-22T18:27:00.000-07:00

填不住的空隙
让时间带走
欲跃奔放的热情
只能放进冰箱冷冻

有时感到无比的压力
惭愧。内疚
就懒得控制些什么
尤其
一个人。一个人。

无论如何
你生活上的改善
给我无比的安慰

那是一种很感慨的心情。

很遗憾的

我不是你的伯乐

生日快乐。

忍者

2011-02-06T23:44:00.000-08:00

最近我的忍耐能力越来越强了，很开心 \ (^o^) /
“忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空”
从小写着写着，自己终于慢慢领悟到这句话的威力
自己的亲身经历，加上朋友的怨言满天飞
我察觉尤其在真正的办公室工作环境下，
忍耐的重要性更为显著。

有时遇到初次出来工作的小朋友，态度懒懒散散，动作缓慢脑袋又不醒目 =.=
不是老板的，就安分点儿，睁一只眼闭一只眼 (o_^)
所以换作是自己的话，要懂得察言观色，因为不是每个同事都愿意冒这个险去提醒你什么，
只有观音才会打救你，要自保的未必会多管闲事。
这不关谁对谁错，纯粹因为你吃的米比别人吞的面少，视野放得不比别人宽

同事喝茶聚会时，最忌畏的就是八卦别人的是非--- 这句话千真万确！@_@
无论你多么的信任那个人，无论你们有多么的和好，
你不会知道下一秒连你自己也被议论着！
不是要你把自己变得小心翼翼，只是‘防人之心不可无’

可以不必参与讨论，点头迎合就好，自己心里认同的程度，自己知道就好！

工作时遇到不顺遂的事情，无论事情有多么的糟糕
切记：你没有必要为了别人的生意把自己的心情搞得那么的不愉快 -(oo)-

忍耐，忍耐！事情总会过去的。

可以对家人朋友发唠叨，但不要发脾气，

要平静地面对，一笑置之，我保证乐观的人会很好运！

所以万事--- 忍一忍，

然后以不屑的嘴脸说：

CHEH ！ I.DON'T.CARE!

Status

2011-01-22T09:54:00.000-08:00

Yea right. Some friends knew about this already while some have not yet even heard about it.
I'm back to single again.
It happened for almost 1 month already.
It's so difficult for me to remove everything related because those are the memories happened in the past 2 years. It's like picking up shattered parts on the floor and you got no idea how to carry on.

Feelings and love represent something, but they are not everything.
Even though i have to admit that he is really a perfect bf.
Maybe we're just not that compatible with each other.
In the end, i get to learn more about myself through this rship.
Facebook is such a public place so i don't find it so interesting to post my latest rship status on the wall. Blogspot is still a little private place of mine so i hope this would be a place for me to express my feelings but not for me to make an ''announcement''.
Anyway i'm doing fine, no worries.
Am quite prepared to move on.
So i hope same thing goes to him.
Be brave.
Just take a step forward and never look back anymore.

I will say this for one last time,

I'm sorry.

It was my fault for taking away all your dreams and hopes when i left.

But no matter how

you should continue with your own dreams.

Think out of the box and never give up.

圣诞快乐

2010-12-23T10:55:00.001-08:00

感情需要一点一滴拼凑起来，
而我现在正在收拾那些零零碎碎的回忆
圣诞节快乐。
愿你一辈子都快乐。

谢谢你的圣诞节礼物。

Mid of Nov - Dec

2010-12-18T10:43:00.000-08:00

Phew~ Mushrooms everywhere!

Time for a clean up before Christmas!

Shoo you spiders and dust~

Well basically i was very busy and most importantly i don't find anything special to share about.

Ahh since when i become so mystery?

Neeway i couldn't recall much about what i did heh-heh~

Just want to post some photos for the sake of posting it~ XD

Farewell for Carwyn

( Sorry for the late update and she had even gone to Singapore for 3 weeks and back again XD)

a) G6, KL

b) D' Magic, Boulevard Bkt Tinggi

Hang out with his family at Sunway Pyramid & Snowflake SS15

the day before my first exam paper ( Communication in Business XD)

i only started reading at 10pm that night, so brave huh?

The night after i finished my last exam paper (and my result was published already last night, pretty disappointed because i can nearly get HD for 3 subjects but i didn't, Argghhh )

Opera, Sunway Pyramid

Dance like nobody cares! i would say this was my craziest night =X

Then i was invited by Alvin & Yoong Lai to be the host for the Steps of Hope charity run organised by ALC College

Ambang Botanic

It was such a long time i didn't host for any event so i was quite nervous for the first half session

For your information, the headmaster is my neighbour -_-'''

Well an uncle invited me to host for a marathon in another week

partner with a DJ from Red/ Hot fm

Unfortunately i had to reject that invitation as my grandma was admitted into hospital

because she had her kneecap operation

so i spent my 4 consecutive nights in

KPJ Hospital, Ipoh to take care of her.

Those are the cold & sleepless nights.

3 layers of jackets + 2 blankets + socks are not enough for me!

Totally layu.

Well, ever since my semester break started

i almost spent every single of my weekdays helping out my 2nd sister at her shop (Cosway beside Pappa Kopitiam Bkt Tinggi) and delivering food to shop at 5 o clock sharp everyday~

It's not an easy job because we need to remember well the monthly promotion and know a lot more about the product knowledge.

Finally got time to paktoh with Victor again.

But we only managed to go to Aeon.

Don't have so much time -_-

then i somemore teman Khai Jian to Station One Bkt Tinggi for the singing competition

I could have already taken part if it wasn't too late to register

Aiks. But i dress up so well that the participants thought that i was one of them.

Ngek ngek.

After that I went to Penang with my coursemates.

Kok Guan, Sebastian ( the penang local) Shin Yi and her BF

ate a lot of scrumptious meals

Owh Penang food are really delicious!

we ate almost 5 meals per day for 3 days!

We also went to Batu Ferringhi for the stupid banana boat

The two guys were so afraid to fall into the water because of jellyfish

so we just sat banana boat for the fun of it and finally i got pushed down because i was kept requesting the Malay guy to make all of us fell into the water. Jialat!

Later on i have accepted a job promoting Ipad at Harvey Norman, Pyramid.

Together with Cheow Ching

Took a lot of photos using Mac Book Pro

Whiuwheet** hehe

Finally My Dear Cheau Yin is back again =)

After finished working then quickly rushed to her house to celebrate her birthday

couldn't forget the smell of the cream and icine sugar.

Yucks! Got attacked for twice!

Nothing happened in the previous week

other than kept on working & working

I must save up at least 1.5k for my taiwan trip!

That's the bottom line!

Neeway just back from a concert at Kompleks Sukan Negara =)

I only managed to watch AK, DongYuZhe, ChenWeiQuan, HuangWeiEr, DingDang & JJ Lim performed

because i worked until 8pm. hehe~ Even skipped my dinner for the concert.

First time watching a concert in my life.

With Victor Babe <3

Love DingDang's songs very much <3

That's all for my happy moments!

More to be shared next time =)

Shall post some emo entries sometimes.

Keke.

Chao =)

Hearts Don't Lie

2010-11-08T10:29:00.000-08:00

I'm pretty exhausted now after completing my Consumer Behaviour final test (which is actually a 3000 words assignment with min 10 academic references required & the time given to do is only 3 days). Well, i couldn't do anything requires learning right now but i still have plenty of energy for some memories flashback. Before i continue i just wanna clarify that this is just a random post, a real random post. (I'm not lying =) )

There are so many faces and things appear in my mind now. Don't have special feelings while recalling about my past but i've sent an 'I Love You' message to those people whom i've thought about. Those people whom i truly cherish, and have gone through hard times with me. And for some who have gone overseas or those who did not receive my text, sorry but all of you have certainly been a part of my life and mean something to me, forgive me for being stingy, SMS is not a cheap communication tool when you are using it to contact so many people. hehe.

Anyway, i started thinking about what i've done in the past year. To be accurate, i've thought of my life in the past 2 years after graduating from Kwang Hua. Fell in love with someone i truly cherish and will never, ever betray, studied real hard during my SAM year with a number of friends including Michelle, Poh Li, Jessica, Ken, Wen Chian and etc who have ultimately changed my perceptions towards everything in life, especially Michelle, who has taught me a lot of things and gave me so much courage to keep my mind positive and Poh Li, who was a totally 'easy come easy go' person. However, sometimes i realise that my low self-confidence still exists due to my to-be-improved English command and my choice to maintain a low profile (not as of what i usually did during high school ) i changed from a loud and proud opinion leader to a good follower and team member, this could be mainly because my other half is an extremely zero-tempered person with high tolerance. Well, i began to train myself so hard that i'm able to control my temper so much better nowadays and take things easily, because life is about gives and takes and all those grandmother stories you've ever heard. Sometimes i met up with my favourite high school gang, Yin, who is going to be an air-stewardess in SIA very, very soon, (congrates my honey biatch<3 i feel proud of you because you are turning your dream to fly into reality) Jean, who is currently deeply in love with a swimmer who had once appeared in Digi commercials. Uh, you won't know how it feels when she always talk about his abs and handsome face especially while he is coaching during the swimming lessons. Horny little biatch peeping her own bf. (again, congrates, my honey bebe <3) Chinchin, who is always a tough person and care so much for me although she doesn't always mention about it. (Love you, honey sweetheart <3) and the guys, Khai Jian, the all-time favourite gossip-er, (appreciate that sometimes he still ask me out for movies and concerts during his STPM time) Xiang, the donkey that is considerate and nice to talk with, and Qi, who always give us aeroplanes whenever we ask him for outings. The best thing he knows about me is my boobs. Always tag me and Chin for nonsence on Facebook (Teehee XD). By the way, for so long i did not meet Ying, Cheng and Yi Jian already. Besides stalking them on Facebook, i realise that i'm too shy to take the initiative to contact them because they are the ones that can hardly come out as our timetable clashes so frequently. Not trying to act cool but here i would like to share a result of the test i took on Facebook. I realise that it is so accurate and after reading i feel that MAYBE this just all about me, me and the real part of me.

Amanda完成了"你有多能獨處"心理測驗，結果是獨處能力指數:95%.

你知道自己如果孤獨，也無法怨人，因為你總是在等別人靠近，很少主動迎合人群，基本上這樣的人不排斥熱情，但卻不能太黏;你們並不冷漠，當他人有需要時，總是有能力付出，卻在自己有需要時不懂得適時開口。這樣的你多半謙虛，你認為自己各方面不特別出色，但在他人眼中，有這種自覺的你，反而更顯得完美。這樣的性格也造一種普遍性的誤解，你認為你不特別受誰喜歡，也不特別對誰重要，實際上卻是你身邊的人自覺沒有什麼可以給予你，而不好意思接近你。你盡力不帶給人麻煩，卻成為你和人群最大的距離，幸好，你並不畏懼孤獨，也總能自得其樂，說你懂得享受孤獨也不為過。

Anyway, that doesn't mean that i'll always be like who i am right now. Maybe I'll change in the next second, who knows? But for one thing i can assure you is that i won't turn into a complete rotten egg because nowadays i'm so motivated to get better results in my studies. Money rules, that's what in my mind. Some people will laugh at me that people who work for money are the ones who will lose everything. Make money works for you. I gave them a smile. Just a smile, nothing else. I couldn't think of any way to make a lump-sum of money without so much risks. I'm not a person who is open to experience. I'm not a risk-taker and i dislike uncertainties. I don't like personal sales that's why so far i have not join any sales companies. Sometimes i doubt whether a Finance & Marketing major is suitable for a person that has a personality like this. It feels like i'm making the wrong choice, especially to study in Metropolitan. I don't regret because what is done, is done but sometimes you just can't control your mind from thinking on the negative side. Haha. It's just sometimes, okay. I'm not that passive anyway. Frankly speaking, i dislike group assignments because i don't really like to be a leader all the time. I'm just a normal student who is doing what i am supposed to do. Study hard. Aim for better grades. I don't like to be perceived as your fairy godmother who can grant you everything you can't get in life. I dislike to stay up whole night working so hard on something and yet you are on your bed, having your sweet dreams. Life is never a bed of roses. You just can't repetitively make the same mistakes everytime. Stand on your own feet, and please, stand in my shoes as well. Not being calculative but this is what life means. Perhaps, environment has changed me over the past 2 years. I don't find depending so much on others as interesting as playing see-saw on the seashore.

Okay. Stay cool. One thing i need to remind you readers is that i'm not always angry whenever i complain or i scold at you, it's just that i'm too precise in using the phrases that can evoke negative feelings. Haha. In other words i'm too straight-forward. Only in my blog la. Don't feel scared to talk to me next time although i know i'm so scary all the time. Anyway, i believe that our heart don't lie. No matter how hard a person tries to camouflage his true personality, one day you'll know who he really is without paying an effort to find it out. Victor said that he loves me because i'm kind. The reason sounds stupid, but this indicates that he did not intend to create effing beautiful stories to lie at me. Sweet <3 Hopefully our patience and passion for each other will last forever. Aha! Talking about passion, i realise that i've long forgotten about my passion for dance. I love dancing so much but i've stopped dancing for so long. People who look at my size often doubt whether i can really dance. What a sad thing to mention but i'm proud to be the most beautiful pig who is able to dance well. I plan to take on Modern Jazz classes end of this year so that i can be slimmer and fitter. Another reason is to improve my health because over the year i have been burning midnight oil and didn't really take good care of myself. I notice that i become so much older as there are signs of 'ageing' on my face and body. I can never do things efficiently the next day if i don't get enough sleep. My period never comes on time even i'm reaching the age of 20. (hehe. Shy) My double eye-lids begin to droop like a declining line graph. Aiks. I don't think i'll have a personal photoshooting session when i'm still young because i scare i'll scold at the photographer badly for capturing my flaky arms, fat thigh and round face. Poor photoshooting skills. It's such a waste for an actual beauty like me. ( you can't deny that i'm quite good-looking although i'm fat! I'm still quite marketable okay! Don't say behtahan, haha)

Alright, that's all for today! Not forgetting to thank Soon Siong, Guan Seong, my college friends and Victor's friends for the ktv sessions. That helps a lot in keeping me a normal person rather than a mad cow. I shall go to bed now. It's 3 in the morning. Let bygones be bygones.
[Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened! ]

Done complaining!
Please say Hi to me on my chatbox if you have really, really read what i've written.
Huuuuuu~ Life goes on...

I rock.

The End.
(1788 words)

你不知道的事

2010-10-10T09:38:00.000-07:00

又在急转弯处煞了个U-Turn

眼镜
         相簿
                  时钟                              啤酒


                  香草                       麻将

                 盐巴                       电脑

                         短剑         面具

                                镜子

想疯狂地跳舞，舞出我一身的秘密。

对不起，

谢谢。

一个假设性的问题

2010-10-08T21:30:00.000-07:00

Part one: 议论

一直以为我同年龄的朋友当中没有一个‘中头奖’

现在‘终于’有了。

我没有办法设想若非另一半家境富裕，

在我们这个年龄当妈妈的朋友们将来的日子该怎么过。

宝宝的费用随日增长，连自己的饭碗都顾不着，该怎么给这个新生命一个美满的生活？

即使全家三餐温饱，年仅19岁生活就被婚姻，孩子套牢，

这真的是你追求的‘幸福’吗？

很多女人在生完小孩后就出去工作，虽然现在double income已经很普遍，

但那种工作心态是绝然不同的，自然地成就的意义也没那么津津有味。

也许对一些人来说这些事情没什么大不了，可我追求最‘natural’的过程

至少要在事业中冲刺一番，取得自己规定的成就地位。

虽然我爱小孩，但如果有一天这样的case发生在我身上，

双方家长同意+经济允许+ 不影响将来生育= 我会选择放弃这个当妈妈的机会。

心里也许会很不舍，但没有轰轰烈烈地过我的青春期，

我真的不愿那么快沉淀在那种烦恼x10的生活中~

老公的忠诚度，孩子的成长教育，家婆的百般挑剔，娘家的健康快乐，自身的经济状况，包括供车，供房子，水电费，医疗费，保险，贿赂费（呵呵，在这儿这也是生活的一部分吧），额外费用，存款以备不时之需等等，

我不认为这样的思维代表不成熟，

只是与其在生命中留下遗憾，我宁可享受我有我的young

--—年轻人的特权：叛逆，不羁放纵，爱自由

（突然想高唱beyond的 “海阔天空”）

（套一句新马人的口头禅: WAlao EH~还没有wet够哪里可以？）

所以尝 ‘禁果’ 前请3思，好好计划，因为阿当和夏娃也是这样被惩罚的。

Part two: 喜事

谈到宝宝，顺便介绍我家新生且快被宠坏的王子

TADA~~~~ 我快满3个月的外甥子 Jentzen Boy (林敬轩）

外号叫Bubu，因为我喜欢Bubu他的脸 XD

出世的时候3.5kg, 现在5.5kg了，手脚越来越像michelin

头脑灵活，四肢发达，第一天出世就能够把他的头伸得高高的，

一个月就会翻身，两个月就学会每天‘complain' （虽然不是很听得懂他的语言）
看看他的照片：

这种叫“做梦也会笑”

应该是拾到金 hehe...

我买给Bubu的衣服，他就快穿不下了

（牌子的耶！姨姨自己都没有cotton on的衣服，

你最好努力挤多几个月！）

我是阿兵哥啦！

Byebye我姨姨blog的读者~

我知道我kawaii neh, uncle aunty 们不要妒忌~

因为他，我的身份也随着正式升级成为AUNTY。T——T

还好，你们也一样，" 有福同享”哦~

untitled

2010-10-01T09:55:00.000-07:00

他说，他不相信怀孕生子是很辛苦的事情，

他认为孕妇三餐既然都吃最好的，多吃鸡皮，鱼皮，姜蒜并不是问题。

他想亲身尝试产子，想了解究竟有多无法想像的痛。

他想要动手术移植假子宫到他身上，

将来由他代产，由我工作撑起我们的家。

我快晕了。

电脑前的你，别偷笑。

You know you love me =X

2010-09-20T15:59:00.000-07:00

Be-Z-ness overrides me some times.

Assignments, tests and emo-ness can't seem to be stop bothering me all the while.

Well i am not so certain that faith always keep our story beautifully written,

but i really want to continue the story with you.

At times, there are a lot of uncertainties surrounding us,

troughs and crests...
but i couldn't believe that when i started to doubt,

you hold me back with your patience,

you tried your best to avoid all the big arguments with me
Uh, it's been so long since we really quarreled. XD

But i really want to thank you Babe <3

for placing me on top of everything else
for every. single. time.

Thanks for making one of the best parts of my life,

a story that i will not get bored reading over and over again.

Happy 1.5 Anniversary.

and happy moving on to the second.

[ I'm still a fussy, hot-tempered, straight-forwarded me.

I'm so-not-perfect but you're so blind for still being so confident with your choice. (ngek ngek =P) ]

坏习惯

2010-09-20T10:25:00.000-07:00

有一些人，
在你经历了那么多事情，成长了那么多个阶段之后，
似乎依然没有改变。
一样的坏习惯。

我写并不是因为我在乎，
只是为他们感到可悲，
当初挥手的时候，
不就是希望你过得比我好吗?

( 挥手：并不同等于恋爱上的‘分手’，想‘开’点吧!)

给您

2010-09-12T09:51:00.000-07:00

也许对其他人来说你只不过是其中一个，
但对家里人来说，我们都是独一无二。
你是家中的小王子，
你是家中的掌上明珠，
而我，
是我家中的小歌星，
一个永远都愿意为您唱[掌声响起] 的女儿。

如果有两全其美的方式，我亦不愿有任何一秒让您失望的机会。

我不说，并不代表我不在乎，

只是我宁愿保持现状，

不是任性固执，

纯粹感觉茫然。

Used To

2010-08-24T00:45:00.000-07:00

I don't mean to be sarcastic or self-righteous.

But,
i have already get used to the way my KH lovely bees used to treat me.
i can't deny that they have become part of my life, my habit.

When they look at me in the eyes,
they are seeking for the most intimate moment with my soul,
but not merely to see their own reflections.
They never turn me into a snail alone,
but we hide together under the same shelter.

Storms and heavy rain,
they never upset us whenever we are together.

i'm not complaining, but i' m thanksgiving.

Be brave !

2010-08-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

" 才离开没多久

就开始担心今天的你过得好不好

整个画面是你，想你想得睡不着..."

AUGUST

Mm~ The air of another chapter of my life

doesn't smell good though.

He changed his job and currently staying in the hostel.

while my Sem 2 has just begun and assignments are piling up.

They killed the lunches and dinners we used to have together,

and reduced our time for movies and datings by half.

We have not much time to text each other anymore.

Only three, or maybe four times each day.

Hey, you must not afraid of changes!

You know that God is testing us !

I told myself.
Unfortunately,

My heart didn't intend to lie.

Thank God,
Thanks Babe,
You understand me so well.
At least we talk on the phone every night before sleep.

We both grow

and we both know.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart,

but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

~Kay Knudsen .

REJOICE !

2010-08-07T13:19:00.000-07:00

Stop creating hopes if you do not even know how to light up a matchstick.
Stop making decisions if you can't even see the difference between black and white.
Stop telling lies if you do not realize that there is a 'LIE' between beLIEve.

My Dear ,
Fate is fair to everyone.
Maybe, she is not the one,
OR, he is not even someone.
So

don't lose yourself when you thought you've lost everything.

Pick up the pieces of your shattered heart because they taught you where you ought to be.

I know it's not as easy as it sounds,

but you know yourself well.

Someday , you'll laugh at your past.

Face Problem

2010-08-04T11:51:00.000-07:00

On the phone.

ME: [Guess how old am i?]

GUY: [Hrmph... 22- 24?]

Distributing free drinks as a part-time promoter.

KID: [Mak Cik, saya nak satu ! ]

ME: [Tak bagi, saya begitu muda tetapi kamu panggil saya mak cik!]

KID: [...] ( Ran away)

In a shopping mall.

BANGLA: [Kamu ada anak berapa?]

ME: [Hallo, saya berumur 19 tahun sahajalah!]

BANGLA: [Soriya!]

Buying movie tickets.

ME: [3 tickets for Street Dance, 9.45 please.]

RECEPTIONIST: [How many tickets for kids?]

ME: [No, thanks. (!@#%!#$^$&*(^) ]

So tell me, what's wrong with my face?

Nowadays i only attract men of 25 years old and above.

SOB.

背对背拥抱

2010-07-24T00:52:00.000-07:00

[快开学了，开学再见吧~]

[最近很忙哦, 很多事情要烦... ...]

[哦我刚好那天有事情做... ...]

[哈~我不是很想去那里哩 !不如... ...]

[这几天每晚都出去，我想陪家人... ...]

这些话
听起来熟悉吗?

在心中份量不足的人，

我们永远都有借口拒绝；

不想实行的事情，

我们永远都抽不出时间。

她的邪恶。他的不负责。她的心酸

2010-07-19T10:27:00.000-07:00

听着蔡健雅的歌，emo 得肚子有点饿。
告诉我，如何狠下心肠破坏别人的美好，自私地成全自己的幸福?

分享属于另一个人的唇，拥抱她残留的温度，
还有无耻地占有他们之间仅存的爱意，
那不叫偷，那叫抢!

我并不是受到传统观念的拘束，
只是，谈得起三角恋爱也不会使你更时髦啊!
我想不通，
天下非得那男人不可吗?
不要他你会死吗?
不要告诉我爱情没有对错，
因为你良心已被狗咬走了!

剥夺别人爱情的勇气，你有吗?
我没有。也无法想像自己。
但我有勇气诅咒你，
等你的报应!

怀中人 ❤

2010-07-14T11:00:00.000-07:00

如果不是看见那么多破碎的童话故事，
我不会发现你竟然是我的宝石!

爱不释手的感觉，是这样的吧 =)

~~“如果注定这段情是一场梦，那我宁愿一辈子也不要醒来。”~~

红玫瑰

2010-07-11T10:51:00.000-07:00

Hi, 为情自杀的朋友，我给你们敬个礼。
爱情，竟然值得你们放弃自己的生命，
可以让你们不。顾。一。切。

拒绝别人，或提出分手，

都是男女之间那种游戏中的IQ题，
智商不高，后患无穷。
这门学问，很深，很深。
首先，要作出了断。
同时，需兼顾对方的承受力，反应，还有背后的议论，反击...
还要设想倘若对方反驳，挽留，或以命作抵押，
该以全心态度去面，还是慢慢表态，让对方自己醒悟...

连女生自己都没有办法判断的对错，
怎能把问号反抛在喜欢逃避的男生身上?!

食若无味，弃之有惜，那种感觉，已不算爱情。

放开他，等于宽恕自己，何必垂死挣扎，自欺欺人?

淌血的黑玫瑰，你凭什么继续伤害自己?

霓虹的斑斓

2010-07-08T01:12:00.000-07:00

诚心的，无偏见的，在没有冲突的状况下，
城市的霓虹灯会照出人们的现实。
是入乡随俗吗?
我们有权发言，却无权评价他人的素质。

有些话发自内心，听起来不悦耳；
有些供奉他人的虚言，却在耳边围绕；
所以啊，该把原则摆在银行里，还是放在口袋里呢?

当除了你以外，所有人都改变时，唯一改变的，就只有你。

慢慢的才会知道的41件事

2010-07-06T11:11:00.000-07:00

01.慢慢的才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己

02.慢慢的才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少,

03.慢慢的才知道,一个人要自己对自己好,因为真正关心你的人很少,有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己

04.慢慢的才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的,

05.慢慢的才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西只能拥有一次,

06.慢慢的才知道,恋爱不一定是真心的, 有可能是利益关系,有可能是攀比心理,

07.慢慢的才知道,不要和别人争论什么,因为那是没有结果的,无论谁对谁错,

08.慢慢的才知道,很多时候自己遇到不开心事,千万不要渴望别人同情,大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起,

09.慢慢的才知道,有很多东西是不属于你的,你使劲强求会遭天遣的,

10.慢慢的才知道,未必做每件事情都有意义,可是做的每件事情都觉得是一件回忆!

11.慢慢的才知道,人的性格可以差异到如此之大,

12.慢慢的才知道,许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出,但请留住回忆。

13.慢慢的才知道,从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人,放弃你留不住的人,不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。

14.慢慢的才知道,自己一定在乎自己的自尊,但你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么,

15.慢慢的才知道,不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气,渴望他们谅解你,人家不是你的父母,现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要,

16.慢慢的才知道,即便有人对情感看的无所谓,你一定要坚信,人之间的感情, 有可能会令所有东西都无法超越的,但记住,只是有可能,

17.慢慢的才知道,原来现实如此的无奈。

18.慢慢的才知道,会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事, 但那与你无关,别人爱咋整随他便,别生不该生的气,不值,

19.慢慢的才知道,自己在慢慢接受社会了,所以也要慢慢学会适应

20.慢慢的才知道,两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友, 有可能什么都不是,

21.慢慢的才知道,会遇到很多诱惑,无论别人怎么样, 你是你,你有你的原则和底限,

22.慢慢的才知道,会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去, 但是他爱怎么样就怎么样,我们要大度,不和小人计较,但前提是你正确,

23.慢慢的才知道,很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系,在一起就一定是恋人,不是恋人就一定不能在一起,

24.慢慢的才知道,学习要刻苦,因为凭聪明就能应付考试科目的人是凤毛翎角,

25.慢慢的才知道,原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊,丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉,

26.慢慢的才知道,手机是别人有事找你的时候用的,并不是为了交流感情的

27.慢慢的才知道,可以不把所有人当朋友,但千万不能把一个人当敌人,至少可以当同学,

28.慢慢的才知道,玩你能玩的起的,玩不起的千万别玩,不然会输了什么都没有的,

29.慢慢的才知道,快乐常常来自回忆,而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距,

30.慢慢的才知道,那些嘻哈打闹只是消遣而已,而过往的抽烟打架更是无知.

31.慢慢的才知道,有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解, 或是根本不知道他在想什么,千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜, 那样会让自己累,既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊, 自己又不是占卜师,

32.慢慢的才知道,不要把自己想的有多高,没有绝对性的胜利,也没有绝对性的失败

33,慢慢的才知道,生活是有很多不公平的, 你一定要正视,相信实力和群众的眼睛,

34.慢慢的才知道,兄弟情义有时候未必是想像的那么美好, 只有自己真心付出,才有可能得到别人的真心对待.

35.慢慢的才知道,有的人不断的算计,到头还来是会输的很惨,所以应当保持一个平和的心!

36.慢慢的才知道,有的事情不是自己所愿意的,但是有的事情必须得去完成,那也是对自己的一段特训.

37,慢慢的才知道,原来两个人在一起或真或假,相处的时间还是占据着重要成份.

38.慢慢的才知道,现实根想法的差距,必须要随机应变,跟上生活的步伐!

39.慢慢的才知道,自己也在慢慢长大,不在是小孩子了,适应着每一件事的成长.

40慢慢的才知道，给人留一线日后好相见的真正意义, 没有永远的敌人只有永远的朋友,凡事不要做的太绝,事情的结局都是用嘴巴说出来的.

41.慢慢的才知道,不管玩的多好的朋友都有可能失去, 但是我们还是要乐观面对,若是真的把他(她)当作自己的朋友就应该为他(她)祝福.遥望!只是做自己所做的.

　　

一直都在学习

2010-07-05T10:47:00.000-07:00

6岁的我。。。
12岁的我。。。
17岁的我。。。
18岁的我。。。
还有刚过19岁生日的我。

人生被分化为好几个阶段，不同的阶段就会有不同的领悟，
6岁的时候，刚幼儿园毕业，不晓得留下朋友的电话号码，断了联系，只靠零零碎碎的回忆缅怀过去；
12岁的时候，小学毕业，学会不再说‘不要跟你好’的同时，却也学会了深深感受生命中两个重大的离别-- 外公的离世，各奔东西的小学朋友；
17岁的时候，中学毕业，这是生命中最精彩的部分，学习接受，学习施舍，学习如何在苦中作乐，还有允许自己偶尔的撒野，偶尔的痛哭，但都只是偶尔，因为，叛逆的日子总得过去；
18岁的时候，踏入中学以外的天空，看见都市复杂的生活故事，常常提醒自己机遇，还有幸福得来不易，所以学会了把握掌心中每一粒沙子，害怕失去的，不会再重来；

19岁的时候，2010年，今年。

1年4个月的时间听似长，却对恋爱中的自己来说似短，甜蜜与争执中眨眼似的度过，偶尔回顾过去18个年头，想想自己初恋时的羞涩，被男生讨电话的喜悦，把PMR当成天大重事的紧张，天天和好友在课室偷懒八卦，还有，曾经非常害怕离别的自己。。。发觉，自己又开始步入生命中另一个阶段，就是学习把大事化小，小事化无，尤其在处理情绪的时候，要睁一只眼闭一只眼，要更进世界的改变，因为唯一不变的，就是改变。

细腻的感情世界，就只有知心的人才听得到，有时候念念旧，会可怜自己以前的天真，但最想追回的，也是自己的天真。有时候，还是会讨厌独立，害怕伤害，想找好人依靠，却发现靠自己最好，于是学会步步为营，学会判断黑白，同时，又会想念小时候爸爸妈妈对自己的爱护，还有那些真心的教训，真的不想在他们的壁弯之外呼吸。会怕，真的会怕。

这几天在购物商场工作的时候，遇见很多久违的脸孔，心中感触良多。
难怪人家会说，巨蟹都念旧。

你心碎了吗?

2010-06-29T03:47:00.000-07:00

又好几个朋友被伤了心。
读着他们记录下的心情，自己也不自觉悲伤起来。
其实我并不了解很多，只是觉得很感慨，为什么这样的道理必须在心痛后才能让人彻底醒悟?
这是一个必经的过程吗?
我曾经很天真地为一个人死死守着一副空壳，因为以前的故事都很单纯的，后来因为一句‘不适合’，就把他划上句号，或者，大家妥协当什么都不曾发生。起初这对我自己是很震撼的，但后来才觉得没什么大不了，因为彼此都没有什么具体的进展，就这样放下了。又后来，我伤了一个人的心，也是一句‘不适合’，认为彼此需要时间和空间去成长，也就这样，因为分开，才能让他成长，也因为这样，才发现有些事情虽然没有深刻感受，自己的思想却不自觉地吸收一些教训。原来，爱可以是这样超乎想像的。

我最要好的朋友曾经和我非常巧合地，同时间恋爱，同时间分手，现在她比我早恋爱，却也刚分手了。我记得曾经我们一起失恋时，她告诉我她喜欢上 SHE 保持微笑这首歌，当时总觉得简单的歌词藏着一种微妙的感触，现在数年后把这首歌再听一遍，依然感觉深刻。我不觉得失恋是一种因果报应，只是一份天的安排，让自己学会珍惜自己拥有的，及看清自己到底要的是什么，让自己活得更用力，生命更完整。虽然嘴上不说，我还是很心疼她，因为她总是把很多悲伤收在心里，不像我，伤心时就在她面前痛哭---有一个这样的姐妹，我算幸运了。

很多事情逃避未必能解决问题，这已经是老腔说法了，但要经过很多事情后，我们才发现老人家口中的真理，若非曾经受过伤害，我想我和现在的他不会这样懂得珍惜对方，因为我们都尽量避免做任何错事伤害这段感情：曾经经历心碎的感情是扭曲变形的，无论如何努力讨好，信任也不可能会重新完整建立起来，只会让这段感情多一道防护墙，隔着你和他。

庆生的那天晚上，看着一些朋友玩疯了的模样，我会觉得有点伤心，不是因为不让你们去释放自己，只是怀念以前的你们，那副对感情认真单纯的模样，至少不会让现在的你们对彼此越来越多猜忌，使感情少了它应有的贴心。不过，我依然很爱你们，所以才会放手让你们去飞，只要你们醉后，记得要醒，不要放纵你们的id，不要让自己的生活变得这么复杂。

保持微笑：) 因为我还爱你啊。

1906

2010-06-18T10:56:00.001-07:00

我有问题!
我的问题就是我一直认为自己有问题~
所以当没有问题时，就会有问题!
因为有问题，所以就更多问题!

错了，天生的。

以貌取人

2010-05-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

又开始想宣泄我心中的不满了。
过去一年里，很多苦水总不怎么放在嘴边，不是不想说，只是找不到对的人和时间。

很多人习惯我嘻嘻哈哈的模样，似乎，早已忘了我那像薄饼皮般的脸皮
他们总拿我的身材当笑柄，用我的熊猫眼取花名，
原因很简单，因为我看起来不像会在意这些冷嘲热讽的人。
他们也许认为，我就是少了那份一般女生该有的娇滴滴的个性，
应该就是那种天塌下来也不怕的人吧!

有时候免不了那块心墙会倒塌，那些话就像千万支攻心箭般穿入心房，
勉强地微微撑起自己的嘴角，挤不出笑容就装想睡的表情，
否则，我能做什么?

[ 不要告诉我你是处女，我不会相信的!]

[为什么?]

[你就长得不像。]

莫说KL的朋友，就连在Subang我都被很多朋友这样评论过，
宁可保持沉默--- 多说多错。

( 不好意思 XD。。)。

幸亏<3 一直都很疼爱我，

从来都不曾嫌弃我，

谢谢你 babe,

我很感动。

漂亮。女人我最大

2010-05-21T11:13:00.000-07:00

美女做作叫可爱，
霉女做作叫恶心；

美女跺脚叫撒娇，
霉女跺脚叫恐怖；

美女抱怨叫可怜，
霉女抱怨叫多余；

美女越多的地方，安静的地方就越少，丑女多的地方则相反。

美女越多的地方，愚蠢的男人就越多。丑女多的地方则相反。

美女越多的地方，自己掏钱吃饭买东西的人越少。丑女多的地方则相反。

美女越多的地方，爱说实话的人就越少。丑女多的地方则相反。

我听见有人在喊：“难道美丽也有罪吗！？” 呒……喊这句话的一定是个美女。（万晓）

　　[深圳晚报]

所以我要当美女，美女什么都对，怎样都有人认同，
时不时装一下无辜，占一下别人的便宜，别人也觉得是理所当然的。

柠檬草的味道

2010-05-11T10:49:00.000-07:00

喝过柠檬草吗?
它有一种我喜欢的酸味，也有一种我讨厌的青草味。
如果我正在一间cafe里和朋友谈心，
这杯柠檬草会让我变得很感性。

有时寂寞突然来袭，让你翻了个跟斗，有点不知所措，
只想继续对着电脑发呆，继续耗我无所事事的时间。
有太多时间要浪费。零思绪。

红唇。豹纹。灯光。音乐。
我不假思索的认真想象与推敲，
才发现那样的我很恐怖。

[ 快乐是我的，不是你给的，寂寞要自己负责。]

柠檬草的味道

A nice photoshoot spot for photographers

2010-04-03T10:58:00.000-07:00

Location: Puchong (After sunway LDP toll, U-turn, and turn left ) (beside IOI mall)

Time: Evening

Mode: Coincidentally (Wanted to go SS2 at first)

Mood: Feel amazed by the scene. Too bad didn't bring a proper camera.

BUT look at the pictures!!!
They were taken by a phone camera!
Imagine if you bring your DSLR camera...
Don't miss the beautiful scene!

Nouveau !!!

2010-03-01T08:40:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW...

Back to college life!

OMG

A new study environment

Meeting new people

Getting new experiences

WOO-HOO~

Everything is new.

Work hard, be tough !

CHEONG AHHH-------------------------------------------

9-Teens

2010-02-26T09:33:00.000-08:00

I feel like turning into a BIATCH sometimes.

Club all nights.

Smoke sophisticatedly.

Drink and dance.

But i still look so retarded.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

Life is about hallos and goodbyes for the past 3 months

2010-02-25T11:32:00.000-08:00

Finally...February is coming to an end. Looking back at what i've done for the past 3 months, i realised that i was really busy socialising and working. What a great life without books! haha~ No exams no assignments no lecturers no stress! I was quite satisfied with my life during the holidays and i wouldn't want it to be ended so quickly. However, time to wake up and no more daydreaming. Sob. Anyway, i bet you must be wondering that why did i name this post as the title shown above. Basically... HRMPH! It was just about farewells, farewells, farewells and learning, trying new things. It was exactly like i had reached another T-junction of my life and was forced to drift my pink Fairlady to a new destination. Haha. Let's see why.

This picture was taken during the gathering of a small group of 10 people at Kah Ken's House.

They wanted to have a potluck party so i bought a lot of colourful jellies. There, you can see from the picture, it was placed on the table. Hehe. I was kinda shocked that Kar Mun cut her hair because i used to think that she loves her long hair so much. Hrm. Reminded me of my long hair Cheau Yin during her secondary school times. Missa lotsss ❤

Then on the 23rd of December, it was Elena's big day. I went to her house 7 o'clock in the morning. I was so so busy helping my Darling ❤ for his make over. I was quite surprised that SHE looked exactly like a SHEmale. Hehe. You can call him Victoria or Mary Jane. Everything made him looked quite feminine despite the thick hairs grown on his legs. Even my leggings were failed to cover them. Ishh... Anyway the morning was pretty crowded as there were fifty men from the bride groom's side ( with 10 Alphards outside the house ) and ten something bridesmaid who were busy torturing the guys. I did not know what to do as i wasn't close with the bridesmaid. So, i focused on taking care of the wig and makeups of the ''little'' Mary Jane. Hehe... There goes another surprise from the groom's side as well. A chubby spiderman who wore spectacles. Kaka~ He enjoyed molesting my Mary Jane because of HER C Cup breasts and so that day SHE belonged to him.

Anyway, i should introduce 2 cute dogs to you readers ❤ Elena's poodles Mocha and Snow!!! Snow was previously having blue ears and blue tail! I love her (or Him?) so much as she was much quiet than Mocha. But in fact Mocha is more obedient and friendly! (woof woof ?) aiya... Visit E-pets house for more! ( Click on ''E-PETS HOUSE'' on the list of my links )

After some time, animal gang has finally came out for a gathering. (Note: Cheauyin= Katak, Suejean= Monkey woman, Weiqi= Rabbit, Tienxiang= Donkey, Peichin = orang utan ( isit so?) Johan= Horse ( Still at Beijing that time) and me= Wild boar) Don't ask why we called ourselves those weird animal names. That's private and confidential. Unless you pay Rm 100 to bribe me. Keke. It was fun though. Enjoyed strengthening the bonds between us. Lurves ❤❤❤

During the holiday, i worked at Sinaran A Tuition Centre & Disney Edu Care (Taska) as a teacher for 1 month. I also went to Dad's shop to help him distribute statements to all the companies and collect cheques from them. Then i accepted a 4 days project --- Vanish Stain Remover! My workplace was in the hypermarket of Aeon Jusco Bkt Tinggi. 8 Hours per day. I found myself loving this job cause my supervisor didn't keep an eye on me or spotcheck me anytime he likes and i can squad down and rest like an aunty when my legs couldn't support my weight after standing for the whole day XD 197 products were sold off within 4 days' time! I was very happy because i tried real hard to achieve this sales target. Improved my promoting skills. Oops, should say there was also improvement on my sweet talk skill. Flattery mouth ^^ Another thing i like was i can play with different make ups everyday, changing colour of eye shadows and made myself looked like a BIATCH cause i have never tried putting on so many colours on my eyelids! SEE~ i blended white, Pink, Blue and Purple eye shadows and many other promoters asked me how i did it! ^❤^

Then one day, somebody informed me that Jessica is LEAVING Malaysia!

Waohh... Finally. (Haha, Just kidding laa ) We had a farewell gathering for her at Flying Chillies, The Garden at night. Another ten of us. The food was DAMN SPICY and i started coughing after eating tom yam Mihun. So syok! But no next time thanks. They said another week there will be another farewell for Wen Chian ❤ and Michelle ❤ but at the end they flew to Australia just like that! T_T I missed farewell for Choo and Aaron and Shaun's Birthday party as well. Useless me. Why can't i drive a plane? Grr... Then going Bangsar and Puchong shouldn't be a problem to me!!

Life carried on with a few Ktv Sessions and i realised that i couldn't live without singing. But i won't say that OWH MUSIC IS MY LIFE and put a ''❤'' at behind of the sentence as that was the typical sentence SOMEONE used to cheat innocent guys. Haha. Camwhored with my bits of PEACHes and the guys -- Guan Seong, Soon Siong, Tiong Wei, Chen Tiong and Yee Ling (another day) at Neway. So far my record shows that i have visited Neway for 3 times during the holiday and 1 time only for Greenbox. Keke~ My bits of PEACHes plus Tien Xiang were all so addicted to English fast songs ( TikTok, Hotel Room Service...) ! We danced crazily as if we were in the club. There's no need to hide behind our masks in front of our true friends. Different thing goes to the another KTV session with the guys and Yee Ling. We sang all kinds of songs and in fact for most of the time we were screaming and shouting. Haha. ❤ them SOUUU MUCHH!!! I'm always myself when i'm in front of them.

8th of February.

My eldest sister, Nicole's birthday. We had our dinner at the famous Boston Restaurant. Then 7 of us plus 2 dogs took a few pictures. Miss the moments when we were in our old house, sisters weren't married yet and all of us lived together under a small roof. ❤ Although life became more comfortable after we shifted into this new house 5 years ago, but we no longer hang out to Sunway Lagoon, Zoo Negara together.( Due to everyone has grown up and bla bla bla ) I feel so guilty of myself cause i still couldn't get used to accepting new members into our family-- my brothers-in-law. Still calling their names sometimes as the word '' brother-in-law'' is so freaking difficult to pop out from my mouth~ Stupid, hell typical Cancerian. Still living in the past and being such a close-minded person. Haha. Anyway, happy 27Th birthday, my Lovely sista ❤

Then then then... Dated my ONE AND ONLY KAI KOR, Wei Zhe. Had our lunch at Fruity. It has been such a long time i didn't pay a visit to Fruity. There was a slight changes on the Menu and some of the cakes weren't as tasty as last time already. I felt so regret that i didn't spend enough time chit-chatting with him as i had so so much to share with him! We met each other through our school Combine camp. He was the leader of my group. He was the one who accompanied me and gave me advices when i was in my first relationship. Being an OH-SO-BLIND girl at that time as the another half of mine was still young and childish made me a super emotional person. Although there was not much he can guide me as he himself did not have experience in a relationship (at that time only, after that he had a girlfriend XD) but at least he tried hard to approach me even though my social freedom was terribly restricted. Before i took my PMR, he cycled from Tmn Chi Liung till my house to give me 5 Milo chocolate bars, one for each exam day. He said maybe the chocolate bars may help to gain some energy to study harder. The reason was simple yet so meaningful! The main point was the HEART of the person who gave those chocolate bars! The warmth and care that he wanted to express ~! That's why i appreciate everything he did to me, till now ❤ So sad that i got to serve my duty as a TRANSPORTER/DRIVER after our lunch so everything was really RUSH RUSH RUSH! And now, he is already at Australia. Take care, My ONE AND ONLY Kor T_T

Chinese New Year made me sacrificed my first Valentine's Day with my Darling ❤ I spent my time at grandparent's house, Sg Siput (U), Perak. As usual, angpau, bahkua, mandarin oranges, biscuits and pamelos. EH! Why this year no KUIH BAKUL? I just realised that i haven't eat any KUIH BAKUL this year! How come?!! HOW COME?! Okay back to topic. One of the nights Dad brought 16 of us (relatives) to Ktv. We took the VIP room and got charged RM476 -inclusive 4 jars of Coke ( half jar was ice cubes actually) 4 glasses of orange juice and 2 bottles of 1 litre mineral water. We were allowed to use the room from 9pm till 7am. However, they wanted to go home to zZz at 1 o'clock. WASTED!!! Spent hundreds but sang for 4 hours only... If this happens in Klang i will kill everyone working in the KTV shop!!!( UNLESS i don't have to pay for it , BHUAHAHAHA...)

18th February, the animal gang split into 2 cars-- HOME VISITING SESSIONS! Too bad we were all lazy worms. Visited only 5 houses within 10 hours. Spent 2 hours watching stupid boring movie WOLFMAN. All seats were full except Row A, which was the nearest row to the screen. No choice so we bought tickets for first row and shifted to couple seats as we spotted there were a few empty places. 7 big S-es squeezed in 3 couple seats. I mean, 2 person for 1 couple seat, and only me, Johan and Tienxiang sticked together in 1 couple seat. haha. But nevermind. that kept all of us warm and we slept together in the cinema XD

Wolfman = Lullaby

During the entire week of CNY celebration, i only Lou Sang for once. V-garden, with my darling's colleagues, Pei Ling, Ms Lee & her BF, Ms Ng, Alice and her Fiance, and another 2 person. We were late for an hour due to some personal reasons ( not because of MAKE UP OKAY!!! Don't judge all girls by using the same perspective ) The food was a bit s*cks actually. My sister said the dishes are sometimes delicious, depends on the mood of the chef. (WHAT? I pay for his MOOD??) So, Rm70 Per person. Still reasonable la. Craving for Lou Sang session at UMAI-YA DAMANSARA UPTOWN!!! Too bad by the time i make my time available for Umai-ya there will be no more LOU SANG... CNY is going to END soon~

OH-YA! I went to Cheras Pasar Malam for twice and spent around RM300 ! Wahkaka one SHOPAHOLIC who wanted to buy whatever cheap things and one TAMCHIAKGUI who wanted to eat whatever he saw~ CHEAP STUFFS~ Leggings for Rm12, Shoes for Rm 25 etc... And our new 5th couple tee! I can hardly join the fingers on my shirt with his fingers to form a ❤ shape cause i'm not a KLIA! Haha... I WARN YOU! DON'T BUY THE SAME COUPLE TEE AND DON'T TEASE ME BY SAYING THAT MANY PEOPLE HAVE BOUGHT THE SAME COUPLE TEE! Bluek, bluek, bluek...Just listened to Lee Hom's song on the radio --'' 情人總分分合合可是我們卻越愛越深認識你讓我的幸福如此悅耳能不能不要切歌繼續唱我們的歌讓感動一輩子都記得'' and i want to dedicate this song to him, my LOVE ❤!!!

BYE HOLIDAYS!

And... GUYS!

Got to tell all of you that i've enrolled for Bachelor of Commerce (Business Mgmt &Mktg 3+0) under Curtin at METROPOLITAN COLLEGE! wuishh... Classes will be commencing next MONDAY! Pray that my passion in studies will keep increase at least until the day i graduate ! Enough of mingling for so many months! Pray that i can find a bunch of nice friends who play hard and study smart! Pray that my performance in college will be GOOD BETTER AND EXCELLENT !

WAKE UP AMANDA LEE!

[err... can i have another 1 month of holiday before the school starts? :) ]

情路

2010-02-23T11:33:00.000-08:00

JJ Lim-- Yi Ge You Yi Ge

突然深刻地回想從前
曾經以為會開始的戀情﹐來不及眨眼之前就鞠躬落幕
曾經以為會長久的愛人﹐酒醒才發現對方不了解自己
曾經以為會愛上的好人﹐冷靜下來才發現感覺不存在
曾經以為會結怨的情敵﹐洽談之下才發現我們立場分明
曾經以為會黏你的護花使者﹐主動鮮花供奉﹐一遭拒絕﹐開始大肆顛倒黑白
曾經以為不會開花結果的曾經﹐如今卻變得好遠好遠﹐
連我也不曾預料自己會和一個大我這麼多年的人一起了好一段日子﹐
幸福得連我也不敢預料會不會有一天會結束。

踩著過去﹐遺忘不捨。
會有很多新發現﹐還有更多心發現﹐
但尋覓的路途中﹐暮然回首﹐
原來﹐我的心沉重了不少。

看化。
老了。
卻未枯萎。

Posted this because of Ying Ying ❤

2010-02-06T22:20:00.000-08:00

I couldnt stop crying now after reading Ying Ying's latest blog entry which is dedicated to me.
http://welcome-to-yy.blogspot.com/2010/02/day-with-amanda-post-for-only-her.html
You know sometimes when you try real hard to treat someone good but there's no 100% guarantee that your efforts will be appreciated. Afterall, rumours may be affecting your reputation and tell me, how many true friends will be there supporting you always, morally and physically? Ever since graduated from Kwang Hua in the Year 2008, i've confronted with so many things which really force me to see through things that i've been secretly hided away. Rumours, gossips... Most of the things they talked about me were not the good ones. You know how sad the feelings is when you used to think that you're that kind of-oh-so-okay-person but in fact you're the most terrible one. Then you start wondering by the end of your life will you get anyone who is still love you and care you no matter what others said about you? Looking at friends who have so many gatherings, and busy commenting each other's blogs, facebook etc. Friends who i care may not be commenting on mine so often, so i started to convince myself, Girl, you do not have to be the best, you just have to try your best. Live your life to the max. Show your true self and give your love to whom who deserved. The clever ones may not understand this, only the dumbs are willing to sacrifice everything and remain keeping themselves quiet and silent like you can hear even a pin drop on the floor. So i began not to take so much initiative to care so much about my friends, not because i don't care, it's just that sometimes deep in my heart i feel that only the one that doesn't always show her feeling will be cherished as there's a chinese saying that goes like this '' Wu Yi Xi Wei Gui''. Not expressing so much of my warmth and love have made some of my friends complained that i had been too into my relationship and forgot about my friends. This is not the fact you know. But i continued pretending to be speechless. Victor always said that i'm too fragile, too innocent to know about the ugly truth about this world. He always remind me to be strong and not to show so much of my feelings to the others. This world is so sick that everyone prefers to camouflage themselves in order to build up a better self-image, being straight forward is not an ideal way to have a better social life anymore. I tend to throw all the rubbish into my little litter bin which is placed in my heart, smiling everyday. Yes, you may feel lonely sometimes especially you don't know other than your Boyfriend to whom can you speak to. You even feel that so many people had forgotten about you and left you at behind, moving forward with a grin on their face, gossiping about everything bad about you. You know how bad is the feeling of changing yourself from being so straight forward and showing so much of your true self to a person who is not good in socializing, low profile and etc. That's why, the older you grow the more you'll appreciate those people who can accept and like you for who you are. Because there are just so few of them. Hereby i have to thank my animal gang, Cheau Yin, Sue Jean, Pei Chin, Khai Jian, Tien Xiang, Wei Qi, Johan, and my other best friends Ying Ying, Woam Cheng, Yi Jian, Yee Ling, my Only Kaikor Wei Zhe, my Boyfriend Victor and so with others who are not mentioned. Because of you all, i always remind myself to stay strong, to be more optimistic. Forgive me for being still so emo and passive thinking because i'm struggling hard to improve myself. Meeting all of you in the past two weeks time had really made my days so wonderful and i could feel that i'm really at the peak of my popularity now. I need all of you to keep my life keep goes on. Thanks for being so supportive and accept me for who i am no matter how others criticize me, leave me at behind, gossip about all my past. I know how ugly i am, but i'll continue smiling, now remember to give me a heart-to-heart hug when you see me. I'm serious. Love all of you ❤ Domo-arigatokozaiimasu.

Amanda vs Sook Xin

2010-01-29T08:44:00.000-08:00

I always thought that Cancerians are the ones that always being ultra emotional and couldn't get rid of living in the past. But i could never expect that Cheau Yin is also that kinda Emo Queen. haha~ She's being emo throughout the whole Year 2009. Posting emo articles was used to be my ''habit'', which formed my ''habitat'' ( haha that's what my lovely boy, Johan told us ).[ High school friends are always the heart-to-heart ones. i recognize those that call me carwyn and those that call me cheauyin.] -- This was found in Cheau Yin's blog a couple of minutes ago. Haha. Sounds like she's a worm in my stomach in this particular aspect, surprising huh! cause we were used to admit that we did not share any common similiarities.

Have had a 2 hours gathering just now in the evening with Sue Jean, Tien Xiang, Cheau Yin, Pei Chin, Wei Qi and our Johan who had just came back from Beijing. We talked about many fun things and updated each other about our recent life . It was just like rekindling the fire on the little white candle, which had been blew off since a decade ago. Johan had changed quite a lot. He became more fleshy compared to last time, but now he looks exactly like a mature MAN. Having a tall, fit body and a great warm smile hanging on his face for every single minute. Fierce man charm he has. He bought '' I love Beijing'' tshirts for all of us. Oh how great! There was at least 1 minute that he had spent on thinking about us when he was over there, so many miles away from Klang! Great. '' I love BJ'', BJ for blow job. Our horny friend said so -_-''' And guess what? He had been kept saying '' Eh Sook Xin, your face looks more chubby than last time already, so cute! '' for more than 3 times~ Uh. Shy man (@-_-@) Neeways...Bed time. Gotta stand for 8 hours tomorrow. ChaoBye [ Mentioning 1 or 2 vulgar words doesnt make you a very sophisticated or rude person XD] Will dream of my best friends tonight-- all the names mentioned above + YingYing Lee, YiJian Lee, YeeLing Tan, WoamCheng Lim, Khai Jian Yap. Treasure our friendship.

Quote of the day: From Jaclyn's blog:

Watch your thoughts, they become words;

watch your words, they become actions;

watch your actions, they become your habit;

watch your habit, they become your destiny.

So don't tell me the theory about your habit creates your habitat or your thoughts of trying to smoke because it doesn't make you look better than anyone else! Think for your lungs, your family & your children. Smoking brings long-term negative effects to your body.

I always ❤ all of you.
*we haven't bought our ring of friendship yet~~

Here's something really nice i would like to share about love, home and happiness ❤

2010-01-27T00:36:00.000-08:00

Love is like wine ,with the passing of time, wine matures, and becomes richer, and fuller.

Mature wine awakens the senses and satisfies the soul, like love.

But love is fragile and easily shattered, why do we so easily forget the beautiful memories that we shared?

A happy marriage is just like a pair of happy wings

That glide gracefully in harmony

As they rise to the sky

Each needs the other to move to the lowest valley or soar above the highest peak

Hope is a place of refuge

Where one finds love acceptance, forgiveness, and rest from the vary world

It is not a place to keep account of wrong doings, but to store happy memories

To love someone for a little whiles, easy

But to love the person for a lifetime

Demands all your strength

And marriage that is just begun is like a new house

It starts with home too, and together, man and wife must filled of love

Kindness and understanding

Slowly, the house is transformed into a whole of great beauty

Love is like a river that flows over reaching fire

Love can carve a rough stone, sew the deep boot and ease the pain of a hurting heart

But love is patient , love is kind , love is tender and forgives easily

How lovely is the home that is filled with love and laughter?

Where happy memories of time spent with families and friends are stored in the mind and cherish in the heart

Where the fountains of joy that merries the soul continues to grow in the future

Home is where the feet may leave

But the heart doesnt

A house is made with walls and beams

A home is made with love and dreams ❤

假装多好

2010-01-16T08:46:00.000-08:00

越大就觉得人心叵测，越大就越觉得人言难信。

为了爱面子，没有什么故事是不能编出来的。

双头蛇。

多么努力伪装成熟都好，我没有办法否认自己有一点气得面红耳赤。

就算是从前缠着你kutu, 如今依然在你背后毁你名誉抬高自己的kutu, 今天可以大摇大摆地对你面带笑容say HI! 讨厌。

其实，交友靠缘分，也靠天份。

我的朋友有那么多，就只有那么多，我没有办法改变自己被动的性格来迎合大家，更没有办法强硬扩张我的人际关系，不过，比起那些万人迷，我是一副空骸吗?我也有我的本分啊。

多么无知。

无声无息了3年余，好事没人传，坏事一幢幢；流芳百世，遗臭万年! 活该!

狂吼有错，保持寂静也有错。

我喜欢我大剌喇的个性，却也讨厌我大喇喇的个性!

是它让我表里如一，但却也是它让我所有的羞涩与含蓄被造谣者掠走了!

如今难的找到一个百分百相信我的人，我会尽我全心全意，

你，你，还有你，请对我保持朋友的分寸，

你，你，还有你，能成为补充你自尊心的工具我真的引以为荣!

kutu, Siam Lah! 没看见我幸福得很低调吗?

低调到不行哩。

就这样走了

2010-01-10T20:33:00.000-08:00

我有一个小学老师23岁的女儿今早服食50粒降血压丸自杀死了。
死因是拍拖2年半的男友突然坦诚在外头有另一个女友，而且拍拖了1年半，
女儿一时想不开，就自寻短见。

老师天生其中一只脚有小儿麻痹症，行动非常不方便，
丈夫英年早逝，三个儿子却不尽孝道，成家立业后就过河拆桥，很少回家探望母亲，唯有这个女儿和她相依为命。有一次，老师要从床上站起来，结果一时腿乏力，跌断了另一条腿，足足3个月她只能在床上度过，幸亏家中那时有女儿在，还有人可以照顾她。现在女儿走了，她。。。怎么办?

我不会同情这个女儿，因为她很自私，自己的母亲生命已经如此坎坷，她却甘心为一个外人放弃生命，让母亲白发人送黑发人，也不曾想过将来有谁可以照顾母亲，自私，自私! 我也诅咒那个一脚踏两船的男人，我要他受到同等的报应，痛苦一辈子! 要爱就爱一个，不要随便伤害别人，破坏别人的生活! 要是爱上了别人，就解决好这儿的感情才往那儿发展，爱情绝对不是一场你玩得起的游戏!

男友自私，女儿自私，老师。。。
虽然女儿走了，但你还是可以好好过日子，在这儿教导女儿如何看开人生悲欢离合，教她如何更坚强，她在黄泉之下一定听得见，一定听得见!

不由得你不信邪

2010-01-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

刚刚去活力健康吧喝herbalife的时候，

aunty们问我要不要让一个年轻的男子给我分析一下我的生活，

看在贪玩我也随便给了我的生日日期。

以上这样的表你应该也有看过吧?

可是你认识这些数字代表性吗?

我没有啦，所以结果让我感到蛮诧异的。

一知道我的出生年份，

该名男子第一个反应是：[ HA?你才18岁罢了啊?]

哈哈。我想大约28岁的他会以为我小他几岁而已，真他X的~

后来他算了算，就开始为我分析。

他说---

我的个性是属于行动派，很多事情不愿多加计划便开始行事，所以无论朋友要求麻烦些什么东西我都愿意赴汤蹈火，尤其像搞party,聚会之类的东西, 挑选东西眼光独特，并且有水准。原本生活优哉游哉的我，就是因为常常插手于别人的事情才搞得自己生活一团糟，使自己又忙又烦。也因此，我缺乏耐性，不善等待，力求事半功倍，属于急性症候群 [这是我为自己取的XD]。一向缺乏方向感的我无法准确形容地理位置与方向，但将来出外旅行，公干的次数会非常频繁。可惜，表现即使优秀，上司或是其他人都难以看见我的付出，比起别人那些尽小功劳得大奖赏的人，我的才能会因此埋没。平时说话心直口快的我，不怕得罪人，习惯一切坦白道出心底话，因此别人都不会敢欺负我。至于朋友圈呢，生命中知心朋友来来去去最后会只剩那几个，交流不算广阔。要多注意肺部，骨头和眼睛的问题，多加照顾。

如果想让自己更加成功，要在身上佩戴有‘9’ 字的物品；要让方向感更好呢，就佩戴‘5’字的；若是要增进人际关系，就常接触‘7’字的饰品。

虽然后来我笑笑地离开，但心里觉得很惊讶，毕竟他说的一切那么准确。

唉!

感叹自己的付出无法让自己在学，事业中鹤立鸡群，得到赏识，

而且即使多么乐于助人，依然无法改变自己的人缘，朋友只会有事钟无艳，无事夏迎春，

真正关心自己的朋友屈指可数。

如果男友离开我，不知道自己会不会孤独终老。

有好过没有啦!

哈哈哈。。。

有些事情真的不由得你不信邪。

Happy Year 2010

2010-01-01T23:00:00.000-08:00

Patience has its limits, especially for those attention seekers.
My mind is full of anger? Haha.
You are so wrong
I can bottle up my feelings better than last time.
I'm doing this to protect myself & i'm comfortable with this.
I know who deserves my love.

Happy Year 2010.

Our ''Virginia'' Christmas

2009-12-25T09:40:00.000-08:00

曾经我问过一个拍拖拍了9个月多的女性朋友这样的一个问题：‘hey, 9个月了，有什么感受?’她有点无奈地告诉我: '这样罗! 没什么特别。’现在轮到我来问自己了： ‘hey, 9个月了，有什么感受?’ ‘ ER...平凡生活中多了很多的插曲，很多的惊喜。’

我会这样回答。

回想起这些日子，

我心里是甜滋滋的。

我想大家都知道我为什么这么珍惜他还有这段感情。^^

对于Christmas 这一天的计划他一直对我一字不提，

无论我怎么套他的话他都金口不开，

我想他应该是太了解我了吧!呵呵。

第一次光顾这家西式餐厅Belly Good @ Sunway City

我有种拍TVB 连续剧在情人节当晚吃烛光晚餐的感觉

气氛，食物，红酒，对象样样很合眼缘，

唯独窗外的天色还没暗。

因为怕没booking餐厅饱满所以我们早到罗!

他叫了一份红酒猪扒，

而我叫了rendang猪扒，

都是这里的招牌菜式。

结果，我们最后对调食物，

因为我们都喜欢彼此的那份扒。

望着他吃得津津有味的样子，

其实我很想哭。

因为我真的很为他的细心策划感到很感动。

平时我们都不怎么讲究吃的，

现在却浪漫地举起酒杯cheers! 品尝红酒

那份爱意真的浓到。。。不行啊!

吃完了我们的浪漫晚餐后，

我们前往i-city 拍照，

听说那儿有很多华灯会跟随节日更换。

一到那儿我就一直wahh...wahh..wahh..

因为那一条一条坠落的白色灯饰真的很有下雪的感觉!

五颜六色的圣诞树更是可爱夺目!

我们就一直拍。。。

拍到人家‘收档’。

后来，我们去他家吃我们在Subang 闻名的日本面包店Rt's Bakery 买的Japanese Custard & Chocolate Bun, 我才知道他买了2个会‘唱歌’的小娃娃给我。虽然它们让我突然觉得自己像小女生，但我依然感到很开心! 只要心爱的人送的礼物，什么都看起来很讨喜吧? 怎么说也是他的心意^^ 看我一脸幸福的样子你都知道啦! 哈哈~

弟弟妹妹，欢迎加入我们的家族，

跟哥哥姐姐打招呼吧!

[Boyboy: 黑色魔鬼；Girlgirl：红色魔鬼；Zaizai: 白色大熊]

还有。。。

你们的爸爸妈妈。^^

应该是妈妈比较疼你们啦!

因为你们都只跟妈妈住。

爸爸嫌你们太大只霸占他的床位。哈哈。

而我自己呢。。。

其实准备了很多材料要做一份礼物送给他。

结果最后那样关键的材料买不到所以报销了。

不知道他是否嫌弃我的小卡啦!

我想应该不会啦!他人那么好。呵呵。

总算也有为这特别的一天费点心思取悦对方。

圣诞节快乐，Darling.

还有你们，也要快乐。^^

Xmas Eve @ Genting Highlands

2009-12-24T09:57:00.000-08:00

We've planning for this christmas celebration since a couple of weeks ago.

We= My dearest secondary school best friends.

i seriously love them so much.

if i'm the one who is doing the chasing around a circle,

then they must be at the centre.

Hanging out with them has always been a very relax and fun thing to do. No worries, and everyone is so straight-forward. No secret. No boundaries. You can talk about whatever things you like, and bullshit until you feel satisfied. We do all the stupid things together, which, things that my other friends would let me do alone. Ahaha... Sounds like we're a bunch of psycho.

On the day itself, Jean, Xiang and I met up at Klang KTM Station.

we Then took a taxi from KL Sentral to Genting.

That costs us Rm30 per person.

we got no other choice as all the buses were fully booked.

Upon reaching Genting Highlands we straight away headed towards our hotel, Gotong residence, which is located inside the [pong lai] temple. that place was extremely quiet. while waiting for our 2 priness and their family to come, we took a lot of pictures and really enjoyed the moment at there.

Xiang has been sleeping all the way while the girls were busy chit-chatting .

I couldnt stop my hands from snapping pictures of his sleeping face.

the main point is : he wasnt awared at all!

He must have had a good sleep that time ^^

After showering all of us make up --

including aunty and Mingxun, their younger sister ^^

woohuh...

All the sexy ladies.

Qi should be regretting that he didnt come that time to see us XD

Uncle treated us dinner at mushroom garden.

The dishes were not bad but the thing is the price was really scary!

Anyway, we got to thank Uncle so much for his generousity ^^

Uncle was really a gentleman.

he drove all of us to First World hotel after that.

First World was really crowded at that time.

We got nothing to do but we did enjoy ourselves.

SS, again ^^.

Finally my Dear managed to come to meet me.

Initially i asked him not to come as all the buses were fully booked.

and I didnt want him to drive as it was really dangerous.

But he was so stubborn that he took KTM + taxi and made his way to meet me

I felt so touched but heart-ache at the same time too,

bcuz he looked so tired after working for whole day and travelled so far to Genting.

After taking pictures for some time,

finally we've met Yin's Boyfriend, Brendon for the first time.

I spotted this [ refer to the picture below]

hoho~how sweet were they?!!!

i felt like i was a paparazzi as i was snapping their pictures from their back

ngek ngek~~

After that we went to Starbucks to countdown...

Everyone was so exhausted already i didnt know why.

But when we reached our hotel,

everyone began to talk and drink again.

LIQUORS... hehe. we shared a bottle of wine.

i think i was the one who drank the most

bcuz Victor was sleeping already, Chinchin scared her face turned purple,

Jean did not wanna drink, while Yin also drank a little bit only.

Brendon showed us little tricks that he knew by using poker cards.

some of the tricks were quite amazing.

huh. interesting ^^.

All of us finally fell asleep at 4 something in the morning...

*** yawn...

Victor snored so loudly that night which i've never heard him doing this before

Xiang & Jean complained that they couldnt sleep well.

haha~ So sorry guys...

i wasnt able to have a good rest also as i was sleeping beside him only XD

anyway...

the trip ended as the next day morning we departed from there

and came home. The trip was kinda short but good enough for us to gather and have good conversations.

While for my SISTAS and I , we had again updated our SISTAS COLLECTIONS

+ 2 pairs of same ear rings ! *wee ^^

cant wait for more!

MUASKS!

他的婚礼

2009-12-06T02:19:00.000-08:00

表哥终于成了我爸爸那边的同辈分亲戚中第2个成亲的Lucky Star

风风光光地驾着Ferrari迎娶漂亮娇妻进门。

小俩口甜甜密密的，大伙儿合聚一堂，

我有些羡慕这对新人，总觉得有情人终成眷属不是一间容易的事，

尤其要遇见一个真的适合你的真命天子，又是要经过多少时间的磨炼，

多少的分分和和，才能开花结果。

有谁不曾在中途想要放弃?不犹豫真的很难，

坚持的理由只是怕错过一个真心爱自己的人，怕覆水难收。

有时却也是一种欺骗自己的手法。

不过，我宁愿上当。^^

[[对或错有谁知道

能不能白头到老

有没有和我一样

我用一生一世的心

等待一生一世的情

也许是宿命

也许是注定

我真的希望能多点好运]]

-- 林志炫 [出嫁]

Architecture/ Business? Skin L@b then.

2009-12-05T22:42:00.000-08:00

i started working since this month.

This is my second job after being a teacher at Xiao Dou Dou Learning Centre last time.

I'm currently working as a part-timer in Skin L@b, Total Natural Skincare.

Working 8 hours everyday and having a day break every week is a new challenge for me

as i have to sacrifice my time with family, friends and Victor

also to confront with various problems such as requesting to change shift, deal with customers, co-operate with colleagues and also to avoid any complaints made by my manager.

Finally Saturday i have time to go to colleges to collect education information.

I've enquire courses such as Business Admin & Marketing and Architecture.

most probably going Inti, Metropolitan, Taylor's or Monash.

everything is going to be completed in local.

After that, i and my DarDar went to Face to Face Restaurant.

When we were parking our car,

a lady came out from her car without pulling handbreak.

She didnt notice that her car was still moving and finally when somebody at behind hon her

She became alert with what was going on.

But everything was too late, the front wheel of her car fell into the drain and stucked there for around an hour. So my DarDar was so busybody~ i curi curi snap his picture while he was kepoh-ing. hehe~

I ordered Sarawak spicy dried noodle

I asked DarDar what he wanted to eat that day

he said [ 随便，你帮我叫啦]

[ 要辣的吗？]

[不要。]

[哦？做么今天不吃辣的？]

[ 我当然是要为了你好好照顾我自己啦！如果我早走你怎么办？]

he answered.

Hehe ~ My DarDar.

Still that sweet to me ^^

Very happy ^^

working doesnt make our distance further

but injected a new experience into our lives

Learning something new at the same time,

Cherish each other more day after day.

Looking forward for our first Christmas & New Year Countdown.

Lurve.❤

Graduation Trip To Penang 23-25 Nov

2009-11-26T00:01:00.000-08:00

Tada! I'm back from Penang~

And it's time for me to make a summary for my graduation trip~

Basically this trip has taken part by 14 classmates [ including myself]

but we've been separated into two groups,

which is, a group of 6 and another of 8.

Cuz the first day the group of 8 wish to stay somewhere near the beach.

So...

All of us took flights -- Air Asia cuz during the time we wanted to book the tickets,

the company is having promotion~ BUT

we booked the tickets to be at 830 in the morning~

which means... 630 am we must reach airport already T_T

wooo~ I was like zombie that day~

So sorry but i had to make my Dad send me to Michelle's house at 5.45am

so that i can carpool with her to the airport

Dad, Thank you~ T_T

Everything went smooth but i wasn't able to get enough sleep on the plane

the plane was moving at rather high speed so we manage to reach Penang airport in just 35 minutes

So we dragged our luggage and started walking

searching for transport to Gurney Hotel

At the end we manage to get public bus to reach our destination

In the bus we were like Good Samaritans

We gave away our seats to many old people who came into the bus

APPLAUSE!

That was the proof that youngsters in Malaysia still have the sense of conscience and sympathy for the old age ~ WE --- THE FUTURE GENERATION OF THE COUNTRY!

Proud man, Yoyo--- check it up, check it down...

After 1 & a 1/2 hour of sitting, standing + walking

finally we've reached our hotel. Know why?

because Kah Ken said the distance between Gurney Plaza and Gurney Hotel is very NEAR ONLY

So we took the bus and got down at the Gurney Roundabout

started walking for 30 minutes...

Then only we realised that Gurney Plaza is at the beginning of the Gurney Drive

while Gurney hotel is at the end of the road

Good Job, Kah Ken...

You made us almost crawled on the floor ! XD

We reached the hotel at 12 something~

Too bad the person said that we cannot check in first

So we went to the 7th floor and check out on the entertainments provided

As what i saw they have table tennis, archering, gym, swimming pool for kids and adults, pool

games like snakes and ladders & checkers

So we mingled around for a while then finally we get into our SUITE

The 27th floor ~Huhu Everybody was rather exhausted already XD

We then quickly changed and took bus to Bt Ferringhi to meet our friends

That was around 3 something when we reached the beach

the sky was gloomy and i thought it was about to rain soon

all the 6 of us shared my sunblock and finished everything~ XD

Kar Mun was quite AGGRESSIVE hehe

Finally the other gang of 8 came~

They continued to play in the sea but i came up very soon

bcuz i cant swim and the waves were too strong for me

Since the sky started to rain and the air was so cold

Jane, Chian and I went to Rasa Sayang Hotel's restroom to dry & clean up ourselvse

Who knows a 5 star hotel restroom doesnt have any water pipe for me to get rid of the sands which were sticking inside my swimming suit.

The girls were so busy camwhoring bcuz the toilet was really nice XD

At the end i forgot who the hell came up with the idea to use hand dryer to dry our hair & body

SEE... stupid!!! they even snap my picture while i was using that hand dryer~

stupid JANE & CHIAN ! They were kept laughing at me XD

Evening we went back to Gurney Drive and had our dinner.

Walked all the way back to Gurney hotel, then we came out again to another restaurant for supper.

Aiks non stop eating~ I should have thank God that i didnt gain weight

Look at Poh Li's face

she said that noodle was really tasty XD

but... Her face doesnt show how TASTY the noodle was

The SECOND DAY

Early morning at 8 we woke up to have our breakfast buffet in the hotel

Since we paid for 4 pax only, so only Kar Mun, Michelle, Jessica and I went there

We ate alot~ MIlk + honeystar + cococrunch, bread+ hotdogs+ wedges+ red bean+omelette, fruit salad,

I was DAMN full already~ But Jessica still able to eat spaghetti

PUI FOK PUI FOK...

We [ Da Pao] some food by using tissue for Kah Ken & Poh Li who were still sleeping in the room

quickly ran away cuz scared ppl noticed what we were doing XD

Afternoon We decided to go to the town~

GEORGETOWN

Again... To save money [ Taxi fare from Gurney hotel to Gurney roundabout is Rm 9]

We walked from Gurney Hotel again till Gurney roundabout

then we took public bus to the Georgetown.

Kah Ken has contacted his brother and he recommended us to go to a hawker centre which is famous for its Prawn Mee~ They ordered for extra [ Ju Yao Zha ] and surprisingly the aunty gave us one big bowl of [ Ju Yao Zha] ~ so generous... unlike the one near to our school, always give a small plate only~

somemore wanna BERLAGAK...

I took 1 piece of [ Ju Yao Zha] only bcuz i think it is unhealthy

But... i added 2 spoonful of Sambal

Die man So spicy ! But prawn mee must be spicy only nice !

hehe~

Then we went to another stall for its cendol ~

so-called the VERY FAMOUS AND DELICIOUS one...

I still think that Klang Cendol is nicer than that one~

Must find a day and get these people to Klang to try our Klang cendol

Prawn mee & cendol were seemingly not enough to satisfy our appetite

We shared another plate of Char Kuey Teaw again

Haha~ Crazy Man...

Pohli and I bought pyjamas for ourselves & our siblings while on the way back

i bought this funny pyjamas at Rm11 each for myself and Angie

i took the blue one and the pink one for her

Hehe i felt really happy after buying it

so cheap yet so cute!

After that we went back to hotel and started playing table tennis

i didnt know that Kah Ken was the president of his school Table Tennis Club

Haha but honestly his skill so-so only la...shhh XD

The other 3 of us- Pohli, Mic and I were playing like how we used to play badminton

haha ! Who cares? As long as we enjoy the process.

KarMun and Jessica went for archery

Then we joined them afterwards.

Swimming session! haha Only jessica and I couldnt swim

Btw i can swim backwards!!! so whenever i wanted to chase after them

i swimmed backwards.haha~~~

Victor's fault la~ after so many training lessons

he still couldnt make me swim well

cant even float on the water~

We went back to hotel then Poh Li, Jessica & Mic & I squeezed into the jacuzzi

our ass were so big that we couldnt even move a single inch

Bubbas and Bubbas all around for 30 minutes ^^

and a broad night seaview.

so relaxing...

After that we went to our friends' hotel

All of us shared a bottle of Vodka & tequilla

we played a game by using pokercards

Then drank according to the punishments

Choo's idea la~

Know what...

The liquors he mixed for me is rather thick

i complained bcuz this is so UNFAIR!

then he said [ Aiya bigger size people can drink better]

WHAT THE...!!! kek sei ngor XD

The THIRD DAY

Today we had to go home already

We had our breakfast at Island Cafe

The price for set lunch was kinda fair!

Rm 16 for fish cordon bleu + huge ice lemon + butter bread+ desert+ soup of the day

5 in 1~ worth it la !

After finishing our brunch...

Coincidentally we met our friends...

Finally we had a chance for a group photo~

WEE **

Byebye loh Penang...

Although i used to think that u're a boring place

but friends can make a change on everything.

MUASKS!

Bye, my beloved friends.

i'm looking forward for our Genting trip / Japanese Buffet ! ^^

Visited my Mak Angkat

2009-11-22T10:19:00.000-08:00

Finally i have emptied my schedule and visited my mak angkat who stayed at Tmn Sentosa

if not mistaken the last time i visited her was already half a year ago

haiz... not filial T_T

Mak angkat's 2nd daughter, Suzana had gave birth to her 2nd daughter

Eunice, which is also considered as my niece

See~ she is so cute!!!

Her elder brother, Eugene was really cute as well.

He has such a nickname call [ ang mo kia]

because he really looks like a foreign kid ^^

I suggested to bring him to take part in audition for tv commercial

bcuz i think he has the potential to be a young model! ^^

He is Mak angkat's side 1st sister's son, Ivan Chin

He is very naughty~ but he is quite obedient actually

During these days when i was at mak angkat's house,

he was playing PSP all the time...

he knew so much about the game till i felt that i'm really an aunty already

so outdated T_T

Saturday morning i wanted to bring mak angkat go Bkt Cahaya

but then they have decided to go to Sunway Pyramid

so i did not say anything...

Due to traffic jam, last minute we made our way to One-U

Again we went to My Honeymoon~

Same old place, but different ppl this time.

I miss DarDar so much~ because cant believe that the last time i and Dardar visited to this desert house was 5months ago already !! TIME FLIES!!!

Angie [ we both under the same mak angkat] ordered the purple glutinous rice with banana [ quite yummy]

Suzana Jie ordered Mango Ice Kacang

3rd Sandy Jie who is currently pregnant [ 7months!] ordered the soup with snow fungus

while i ordered hot Tong Yuin [ 3 different flavours ] [ MUST TRY]

At night we went to a seafood restaurant at Teluk Pulai~

Ordered a plate of big head prawn which costs Rm120!

aiks. but can't deny that it was pretty delicious!

Then we went to visit 3-mm [ mak angkat's younger sister]

Eugene wore the cap and Sandy jie asked him to take picture again!

so handsome!

i feel good after visiting them this time

although it was only a short 3 days

but i enjoyed the moment with my 2nd family.

Daddy , mummy, Selina Jie, Suzana Jie, Sandy Jie,

my brothers-in-law + nephew + niece...

Blood is always thicker than water.

SAM Corroburee 2009

2009-11-18T09:35:00.000-08:00

To Select Prom Dress

2009-11-14T20:58:00.000-08:00

heading towards Mid Valley & The Gardens

search for DISCOUNTS!

saw the latest HOT doll

DOMO-KUN!

super HUGE!

while went to the ladies

dardar bought this for me

what a SURPRISE ! **

Yummy~ chocolate mousse cake~

Then we went to eat Ais Kacang~

He didnt expect i'll snap his picture while he was eating

See he gave me that face~ haha!

SMILE.

thanks for dardar...

for your ultra-patient.

You know i super IM-CHIM ^^

Randomisma de Frida-yamanda

2009-11-13T09:42:00.000-08:00

Many things had happened today.

Morning woke up at 10 then rushed to college for a meeting

Diarrhoea for twice, i wonder what did i eat for last night

After the meeting i went to Jessica's house because it wasnt time yet to meet my Dar

i helped her to comb and dry her hair

then i waited for around 20 minutes

for someone to remove his car because he was blocking my way

He didnt hear i hon my car for 3/4 times already

Clever.

after that I bought two packets of fried rice at My friends Restaurant

Then went to meet Dar at his office.

After having our lunch at Your House Fried Chicken Restaurant,

I decided to go to a mini Herbal Life shop at Eng Ann Garden.

I did not want to try out the drinks because i had just finished my lunch.

But the shopkeeper didnt know that there was 1 piece of fried chicken ribs

and a packet of fried rice in my stomach~

she was kept persuading me to try the drinks

each for Rm10 only-a super big glass of Strawberry flavour Herbal Life

helps u to slim down + provides you all classes of nutrients a meal should have

Before that, she helped me and Dar to measure our weight etc.

Surprisingly, his metabolism level is better than me although he always burn midnight oil

Sad~ it's a bit unfair! I eat and sleep more regularly compared to him

but he has everything better than me!

Is that because i'm a woman?

Ohyea.my metabolism level is equivalent to a 32 years old woman.

DAMN ! [ oops, sounds a bit rude XD]

Night time dated Tien Xiang, Wei Qi and Dar go snooker

i thought except Dar we were all ''noobies''

but Tx was quite okay also...

WQ also had experienced playing before

ONLY ME.

This is only my 2nd time playing snooker.

I was so happy that i hit in a number of red balls

and 1 colour ball [ THE BLACK BALL ]

(highest score ball among all)

We played 2 rounds and it costs us Rm19.50.

Actually snooker is not an unhealthy activity

it gave me such a wrong concept since i was young

because most of the time the snooker centres are the places where the gangsters spend their time

and almost each of them will smoke while playing the game

Air pollution + Murdering people indirectly thru the 2nd hand smoke

but the game itself is actually quite interesting

So i begin to udstd why Dar play snooker >3times a week [ So REGULAR]

( hopefully he will cut down the number of times he play snooker every week--

UNLESS he doesnt need to pay )

SEE~Look at the guys.

Yeng leh! Too bad i dont have a LSDR Camera

They didnt really helped me to take picture la. Only 4. hemm!

This is the best shot already~ i look so pro! haha~

Then Dar and I went to hospital to visit his aunt.

She was riding a motorcycle in the evening and got hit by a car

somebody sent her into the hospital and left without giving any personal details

so we didnt know exactly where and when the accident had taken place

Aunt has temporary memory loss, which means she couldnt recall what had happened just now

I was so worried because i saw her face and arms were all swollen

most importantly, Dar's sister told us that 3 of Aunt's rib bones were broken

Her condition was really serious~

Thank God she was still able to get some sleep

at least wont feel so painful for the whole night~

I believe injuries on the rib bones can make you feel pain even when you're breathing

We suspect that the person who sent her in was the person who hit her

Dar said the reason he ran away maybe because he was merely a P-license driver

Human beings are selfish

But i asked him '' How is he going to live without worries for the rest of his life ?''

Does he have the sense of conscience?

If for me i rather throw away my license

at least i will not be having sleepless nights in the future.

May God bless his Aunt.

Please get well soon.

We need you.

After-Psycho Outings

2009-11-11T21:31:00.000-08:00

I've decided to try a LALA-post.

2day horr... Avone lik finis their exam a-lady.

Souu happie nehh... michelle, kar mun, kah ken, choo, jessica and i went to Mid Valley & The Gardens

They said got sales at Metrojaya wo...

Actually b4 knowing Michelle i never heard about Metrojaya, Isetan, Robinsons

Thank God I've learnt so much about quality & brands from her

Souuu few of us sat 2 cars

went to kah ken's house first

his cutie male Shih-Tzu is called TIGER loh...

Tiger Boy very kawaii oh...

The eyes big big like popping out...

Althou he was kept barking,

but he didnt bite me and played with me de neh

Such a friendly dog nee...

Then finally we reached Mid Valley.

Quite surprised de lehh~ you know horr...

Weedays== Wednesday...The parking lots were fulled with cars

Aiya we very lucky de nee...

Still can find car park in a short time

and SELESAIkan our stomach that kept goo-lu-goo-lu at

POPEYE's.

I began to prefer Popeye's than KFC.

Why ah???

The fried chickens taste better

and the bread was a bit sticky but it was delicious and soft

After full-full... They helped me to find out the boutique [Bittersweet]

2nd sister has recommended a dress that she found quite suitable for me

as i'm still finding a HOT DRESS for corroburee

So i tried both the colours....

Still didnt buy worr...

Although Rm90 only, not too expensive...

Bcuz wanna bring me dardar go help me see see~

As long as he likes then okie a-lady nohxxx...

What about u guys?

vote for RED or YELLOW?

help me neh...

Michelle and Kar Mun wanted to buy cosmetics

So we went to Isetan for Bobbi Brown

The manager, Ms Ice Cheah was super the friendly NEH

Kar Mun requested to try the foundation and eye correctors

as well as the mascara

But at the end the lady applied everything on her face wo

eyebrow got... mascara got...

eye shadow [glimmers] got... blushers got...

Michelle tried the Mascara too~ Rm75 only leh~

worth it loh. Better than buying 3 Rm25 Loreal Mascara

which the effect is not so long-lasting

nah nah.

i tried the eye gel, eye corrector, foundation and blushers

i was so the happy de loh

my face look so pretty~

haha~ zi wo an wei a bit bit ...

Then we continue shop shop shop...

at first i didnt plan to buy anything de lorr...

but then horr...

at the end i bought a rm1 elianto nail colour [ promotion ^^]

eye shadow [light brown] + a pair of Twins shoes for very reasonable price only

neh... the picture loh.

i bought the white one ^^

night time I ajak pohli and jaclyn, also with dardar go Aeon watch Raging Phoenix

The movie was quite interesting becuz the story was a bit diff

The way they fought was thru break dancing ^^

and... They said got a company horr...

can make perfume thru Women's tears wo

and the perfume can cause sex addiction

yao yeng leh... a super emo fighting movie

After that we went to fairies cafe lorr...

i ordered Annabelle [ a mixture of apple,orange and lime i think??]

not bad~ i love sour beverages

talk talk talk...

before the clock strikes 12

i'm home again lorr ^^

tadaima.

款素痴鸡

2009-11-09T23:52:00.000-08:00

小狗依然在路旁放肆便便

电线依然在路旁乱伸懒腰

车辆依然在路上四处乱窜

太阳依然勤劳；云朵依然多情；

树叶依然掉落；微风依然吹来。

成长-- 不是学习自我封闭

而是学习催眠自己的心灵

吞噬社会标榜的‘宽容’，‘大方’

明明狠狠摔了一身泥，

也要武装自己。

[阿唷！你想太多了！

我很好，我没事。]

First Times

2009-10-26T02:38:00.000-07:00

Yay-Yee-Yay-Yee-Yah-Eh~~~

Yesterday~ Mm...

Err...

Went... Times SSS-Squarrrre with his family.

Mama, Jie Jie, Jiejie's Daughter, and younger MeiMei [older than me by 1 year XD ]

He drove his sister's Peugeot while i sat beside him,

and the others squeezed in the backseat

The car's alarm started to ring once he got into the car

bcoz he pressed the WRONG passcode

Wahkaka.

'' wee-woong-wee-woong...Euuu---Piupiupiupiu'' That type

a combination sound of ambulance and police car passing by with sirens

Then we headed towards Times Square by using NKVE link.

I think better not use that highway next time because

it is more time and petrol consuming compared to Federal Highway.

I stared at his face for many times to ensure that he was alright

as i was not sure whether did he really know to go by using that highway

[ although actually i knew the answer XD ]

His sister, Sally's daughter, Cherry was really a cute girl.

She has the look of a typical Chinese girl.

Small eyes, fair skin, straight hair,

like a China doll.

Very shy and dare not to pose while taking pictures.

we could barely snap her smiling face.

After being His Girlfriend

[ Capital letter for the initial 'G' because i am His CURRENT & ONLY ONE

and also for the initial 'H' because He is my bla bla bla, too ]

[ okay continue...]

After being His Girlfriend for quite some time , this is my first time hanging out with his family.

First time meeting his relatives. First time taking pictures with them.

His Mommy was so hot ^^ She was wearing a purple dress with black leggings + black high heels. His sister looked gorgeous too. I never knew her taste of fashion was like mine until i saw she bought the classic brown bag and dress with flower-printing that i liked. Aha... And she bought the Valentino Rudy gold heels that i've just tried and she wore them for yesterday night. *wink I didnt buy anything except a pair of couple shades while Victor had chosen a grey dress for Angie as her birthday present.

We actually went to Times Square to attend to his relative's wedding dinner.

The venue was at Dynasty Dragon Restaurant.

After shopping for more or less than 2 hours,

the wedding dinner has begun and

everyone has settled down.

The entrance has been emptied and people were waiting for the bride & bride groom to walk in.

Coincidentally, while the lights were turned off, Victor and I were walking into the restaurant together.

Many people were staring at us. Haha... Paiseh-Kah...

Nah-- Spotlights on the real bride & B-groom of the night. hehe!

Mr Tian Loy & Ms Poh Chui

We were there as the bride side's relative.

So we were able to see everything that was happening on the stage as our table was just right beside theirs.

Normally, what makes the bride special is her hairstyle/ thick makeups.

But for yesterday, the bride was wearing a piece of simple & nice gown.

ULTRA ELEGANTECYLICIOUS!

This made her stand out from the crowd.

Then the food was served accompanied by Kangta & Vanness' song.

That was a bit funny but anyway, the food was okay-LAH.

However, i miss the oat shrimps which Victor has peeled for me

and the glass of Heineken which we shared together XD

We went home at 11pm and reached Klang at almost twelve.

Dad almost SLOTTERed me because i was late at home

[ I have a 12 o clock CinderLALA's curfew, remember? ]

Anyway,

i have to admit that i felt really happy hanging out as a part of his family

[ not really actually, but it MAKES me FEEL that i'm a part of them, hehe ❤]

it was nice to see his siblings and Mommy smiling & talking to me.

Muasks, sorzai.

i'm one step closer to you.