心旷神怡

眨眨眼，我们相识的日子已经1年半了，我的‘男朋友’
这段时间里我们总是互相依靠的--我需要你的细心，你需要我的指点
一直以来我们都说要一起毕业，我到哪里，你就在哪里。
很多事情，不需要你特别开口说明，
其实我已经注意得到你的神情，
也许有时你觉得我不了解你，
或者我大剌剌的个性伤害到你，
但是我想我们都知道大家的底线。

我能够很明确的指出是哪一天开始你对我完全冷漠
你刻意地收起你的祝福，回避任何和我单独相处的机会，
从你做的第一样事情开始，我就已经察觉到
只是，我不问，你也不说，
因为我知道，即使问了，你也未必会愿意摊牌。

你的心有一道墙，保护自己的观念很强，
从你隐秘的部落格里看得出，你很坚持自己的想法，
很荣幸的，我得到了你的准许可以进入你的世界
只是现在，我真的百思不解，
我到底做错了什么事情让你如此反感？
也许我的语气有点坚决，可是内心真的很不好受，
不管习惯还是不习惯都好，你确实是我很在意的朋友，
要不，你怎么会是第一个知道这件事的人呢？

我真的希望我们能够好好坐下来谈一谈，
其实也没什么的，交心交心，不就是交换真心吗？
我给你我的，你也不要吝啬，好吗？
等你，我要
听你说。

Bipolar

Undefined boundaries.
Blurring vision.
Trying to grasp something,
ended up with nothing,
but a handful of air that doesn't belong to me.

There are times when i feel like i'm lost in the grey region.
Struggling, trying to figure out something that is supposed to be out of my mind.
Till then i didn't know i'm getting myself into a dilemma.
Though it will not last long, but maybe it is a good way to balance my emotions.

Being optimistic is no longer my mask,
in fact it has become part of my true self,
that's why i'm being liked by many, not everyone, but majority, at least,
and I'm pretty confident to say that nobody likes anyone who is of a negative mind.

No worries, i'm tough enough to be a superwoman,
aspired to be Claire Bernard in Heroes drama series who owns healing power,
and remains undefeated no matter how hard she falls.
I know i can make it.
Always aim higher.
Even though I'm afraid of experiencing confusion of being true to myself.

[ Character isn't about what happens to you,

but how you respond to it. ]

- SunTzu for Women

学盲人走“路”

不用手来关耳朵，不用眼皮关眼睛，
我唯一能做的事就是：把心封闭，硬撑。



而我最缺的是：
勇气。

Close your eyes, and go back

                                 step forward

哪管别人怎么看我。

他们批评我，

因为他们不懂我。

记

黑暗中的你向我走来，街边路灯晒出了你半边轮廓
你淡淡地向我问候，语气里少不了关怀
但空气中免不了的那份尴尬，依然回荡。
你说项链渐渐松了，连不锈钢环都生锈了，因为你日夜戴着
我看着手中的项链，热泪满盈，这是陪着你度过每一天，我的东西。
强忍住了泪水，我希望你没看见我眼泛泪光。
我努力地寻找不敏感的话题填补我们之间的空隙
却发现我们的距离，渐渐像真空一样，明明是一段距离，却没有任何东西可以取代。

空气变得如此寒冷，像凝固的优胳，是令人如此欣慰却冻伤味蕾的滋味。
沉浸在自己的思绪中，连自己都对自己的内疚感到如此的不可理喻。
连身边的那个都问我：为什么过了那么久还那么内疚？
我无法确实形容，更无法原谅自己的那份绝情
是我自私地辜负了你的一片真心。
我不爱你了，这是实话吗？如果不是，那为什么不选择继续包容？
于是，我明白感情世界里不只是是非黑白对与错，
想要原谅那些我曾经臭骂的负心人，因为，
我成了他们的一分子。
负。心。人。多么好的形容词。

我向你致一百个敬
因为你对爱情的执着与坚持
我可能再也找不到比你更看重我的人
可是我不可以让你影响我现在的感情
因为我清醒地看见，我不能越过的界线
我会说服自己更坚强地往前迈进
对你我唯一希望的就是你会过得更好
要不我宁愿不要看见或听见任何关于你的事，
变鸵鸟也好，
虽然我不会，或需要很长很长的时间
才能忘记我们曾经那么刻骨铭心的回忆
我会把他们封闭在上了锁的冰箱里。

我会哭，
但你要加油。

張惠妹 - 我最親愛的

Imma rude girl

I would like to use a million of that finger to shut your mouth up
I understand that as a friend everything you do is reasonable
but you seem to forget that i'm watching over the entire incident
so this is why you can neglect my existence?

I hate myself so much.
Why can't people who aren't suppose to remember me stop thinking and judging whatever shits about me at the moment? If i were given the chance to do something on you, i'll splash a bottle-ful of my tears on your nerdy face. You suck! I wanna slap you a hundred times i could and run as far away as i can, IF nobody could ever remember me.

I can find a lot of ears to listen to me
but they won't be there for a long time
especially when i started crying
they tend to escape and make me stop crying
why can't i let me emotions flow as what i like？
why can't people pamper me like a baby?
why do i look so scary to everyone as though i'm the iron man?
please don't expect that i can go through all these!
OR perhaps what i need is a shoulder to cry on.

Forget about the image and everything.
Fuck you.
and fuck my life.